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Anyone who says that Autistic people who script/tv talk aren’t communicating is a fucking liar or a damn fool
My new favorite example: a kid at school was told “We’re not friends anymore” and she immediately responded “You get 0 ClassDojo[1] points”
Excuse me she is expressing that she is disappointed in this other person’s actions just fine I think.
[1] A classroom app with many available tools including a point-based behavioral system
#education#work stuff#i am not this girls classroom teacher#nor do I have any say in what behavioral system is being used#i teach 3 year olds#our behavioral system mostly involves saying#don’t put toys in your mouth#several hundred times a day#my student who scripts communicates so much through scripting#the idea that anyone ignores what he means because they dismiss it as ‘just quoting’ is disturbing
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I realise it's mean and superficial of me to block everyone who is like "but the Aeneid IS fanfiction tee hee hee" in the notes of that one poll but consider: my time on earth is short and growing shorter
#i have nothing against people comparing classics to fanfic to explain how art has always been derivative etc#but if you think thats an actual valid take then we have nothing to say to each other sorry#ive had this convo several hundred billion times im tired#eta: fanfic can be valid art. this is not about how fanfic is bad#this is about how im tired of shit meaningless takes for the sake of reaction#someone i usually respect said 'i havent read dantes inferno but i know its some incel shit about how he wanted to fuck this girl'#the other day and i was like. you know what. im just gonna skip and then pretend i havent heard you say that#you dont care. so why should i
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Weeks after learning of the Commodore's death--when he could no longer lie in bed consumed by grief, after he was forced to get up, to feed himself, to keep going--Roberts had visited the Dark-Spectacled Admiral. There was no love lost between the Admiral and the Commodore over the years. Roberts had heard plenty of the stories of the Commodore's frustrations upon return from his many trips to London. He hadn't seen the Admiral himself since he was barely more than a child. Yet he had to try.
As the years had gone by, the old guard had slowly faded out of the picture, until there were so very few people left who remembered the olden days. Remembered the Commodore as Roberts knows--knew him. The man who was full of jokes and life, whose charisma captured a room. One who cared. A man who'd spent hours yelling encouraging words through a layer of crumpled steel, trying to grant some level of comfort to a trapped and terrified child, to at the very least abate some of that terror in what could've likely been his final moments. The man who had slowly faded into placidity and smiles and bright nothingness as the years had gone on.
The Admiral was no friend to either of them, not since the schism, but perhaps he might remember the friendship the two had once had. Perhaps he might care that he died. Perhaps there is someone else who remembers the man, the same one Roberts does, and feels something at his passing. He has to try.
He adjusts his spectacles, hiding the puffiness of his eyes from view, and knocks on the door.
#roberts/nite#my writing#dawnlight dementia arc has me unwell#i don't recall if i'd ever talked much about the commodore being roberts' first captain#who was on shore during the Fall when the ship went down#and amidst all the chaos made his only priority locating his ship#making sure the men on it--the ones under his care--were ok#it took him several hours to do#and by the time he found the wreck of it any survivors had gotten out#or so they thought#as soon as he'd heard the screaming all bets were off#london may have been in shambles and there were hundreds of pressing things to do#but he'd spent the night and most of the next day talking to that scared child inside that wreck of a ship#telling him it would be ok#that they would get him out#he just needed to hold on and be brave#there was never a force that could separate roberts from the commodore after that#and the commodore knew it#he was the only person who could get him off of that rock#willingly or not#roberts
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Ok I'm thinking about kabuto backstory again and thinking about how unfair and fucked up it all is like
> be Danzo
> threaten local orphanage mother into returning to being a spy (by threatening the kids there)
> force them to send One Kid too because he "lost a man" while obtaining the intel he's threatening her to spy over (the kid is Kabuto, who volunteered bc he overheard them threatening the mother over this) (Danzo knows he overheard)
> train kabuto to be a spy while orphanage mother is off on her long spy job as well
> bait spy mom with the promise of keeping kabuto safe to keep her agreeing to work with you
> decide they both are too good at their jobs (????) Of being spies (that work for you?????)(they've been loyal this whole time????) So they're too dangerous and both need to die
> keep mom and kid away from each other as kid grows up
> literally DOCTOR FAKE PHOTOS of the kid growing up to make it seem like he looks totally different now???? So she won't recognize him?????
> give her the assassination assignment of killing the Real Kabuto (who she won't recognize) so they'll kill each other
> whoops, Kabuto survived and killed her instead, oh well at least Orochimaru's watching him now
I'm just like. How fucked up is it to threaten these people into working as spies for you "for the good of Konoha", and then decide that these people (who have given NO INDICATION of intending to betray Konoha) are too good at being spies and thus Too Dangerous and should be killed for it. But no he can't just kill them in a normal way. He had to manufacture an entire scenario so that they'd kill EACH OTHER while making the mom not recognize him (with the express purpose of breaking the kid's spirit) like BROOOOOO I know you ordered the whole Uchiha clan to be massacred (conducting genocide for the sake of 'peace') actually now that I think about it he ordered this of itachi. Ordered him to kill his own family. Of course Danzo would get off on making a mother and son kill each other "for the good of Konoha" he's almost fucking cartoon villain level of horrible past the point of logic EXCEPT there really are people this awful that have existed. Plenty of them. And they have also justified it as being "for the good of [nation]" like that's the Thing, he's a war hungry nationalist that has decided He Knows Best so he's going to fuck up SO many people's lives, up to and including his own damn citizens!!!! And this bitch thinks he deserves to be kage?!?!?! Fucking Hiruzen letting him run wild like this. He knew Danzo was stealing children and indoctrinating them into a murder cult (where, keep in mind, he purposefully raises kids in pairs so they view each other as family AND THEN ORDERS THEM TO KILL EACH OTHER)(AGAIN!!!! with the family killing, what is his PROBLEM) but Hiruzen just let it fucking happen. Spineless fucking piece of shit. He fucked Naruto up he fucked Orochimaru up he fucked up Royally with Danzo like come ONNNNNNNNNN
Rattling the bars of my cage rn at how awful Danzo is and how he was able to just. DO THIS???? I know the bitch is dead but he's not dead enough. Give me the glock.
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#sorry im just losing my mind over this. this changes EVERYTHING with kabuto#and you know i already hated danzo so much. but i just now realized his fucking obsession with making family members kill each other#it's probably for the sake of 'killing their emotions' which he sees as necessary to become a good ninja (*cough* a good tool for the state)#im kicking danzo's head in as we speak. the skull. or whatever was left after he exploded. probably nothing much actually.#it's not good enough I NEED TO KILL HIM SO BADDDDD HE NEEDS TO BE DOUBLE DEAD TRIPLE DEAD#QUADRUPLE OR PERHAPS EVEN INFINITY DEAD.#sets up an infinite time loop of me killing Danzo just to make sure hes super super super super dead#YELLING SCREAMING I HATE DANZO SO MUCHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#honestly as much as i loved sasuke killing danzo i wish itd happened later.#bc danzo's stinky fingers were in so many pies. he was set up as this horrible mastermind#and then he dies... what... 2/5ths into shippuden?? and what do we have now. cringefail sadboy decided to kill the world for his fantasies?#weird alien goddess?? bc all the world's struggles were clearly bc of an alien instead of any human fault???? or something?????#idk i havent gotten that far yet. but thats what ive gathered from online.#for as wonderful of characters as kishimoto writes he really isnt that great at overall plot.#compelling world. fascinating interactions. cool fights and mechanics.#unfortunately he set up a guy to be a big bad and he died before even halfway through and now we have to watch several hundred episodes#of the most Ninjas One Upping Each Other In Make Believe plotlines ever#like the 'i hit you' 'well i have a shield that blocks hits' 'well i hit you with a sword that cuts through anything'#'well i cast a spell before you hit me that makes me invulnerable to attacks' etc etc COME ON MAN it gets so BORING.#i miss the good old days of sakura fighting sasori. now shes sidelined to the medic tents bc shes a poor vulnerable medic or w/e#idk some parts of this is cool. but so much of it is unsatisfying. like the bijuu battle??? come on.#naruto making friends with kurama was great. the fight with all the jinchuuriki was pretty boring.#like come on this is supposed to be a Big Deal. aaaand what do we have now? another fucking bijuu bomb.#oh wait theyre all casting the bijuu bomb together!!! no worries naruto is making a bijuu bomb of the same exact size#so they counteract and shoot into the stratosphere and theres a Big Boom! wow! so original!#yawn. yawn especially at the madara vs kages fight. at least im enjoying the uchiha bros vs kabuto fight.
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#I cannot contain my amusement several hundred of you liked/reblogged the tardigrade#fully accepting it was a seal having an exceptionally rough time#...it doesn't take much to amuse me today tbh#I hope you all are having a great day and feel loved!#If not?#I hope there are enough cute seals to bring the warm fuzzies you need.
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
(I considered taking the time to wash Ketheric's blood off Valas, but you know what it's the man in his natural habitat)
#valas devir#shadowheart#bg3#still funny to me that valas/shadowheart was my release day intention that got derailed in my first playthrough#and then as I figured him out more I realized no actually she /is/ the best fit for him post-tadpole#(for a time)#(valas cannot escape doomed romance it seems)#and now here I am several hundred hours of playtime later...and they're finally together in-game#it's happening!!!#(and lucky for me that since the game won't acknowledge /why/ they break it off in act 3 I will probably just play it through)
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Birthday mood this year is thinking about how a week and a day from now one of my biggest dreams will come true and I will see my fav musicians of the last 2+ years in the real world. Something that still doesn't feel like a real actual thing that can happen at all.
(Also I wanted to say thank you everyone for the birthday wishes!!!!!! <3 And for the nice words about my creature, so here's some more of her hehe)
#pogoing with hundreds of other people to birdhouse in your soul.............. a moment away#my flight is in 5 days............... it's been such a long wait but also i'm still not ready#and ngl it's been pretty hard to be properly excited about anything lately for several reasons. but i'm trying#and i've reached points over the past week or so where just thinking about it for a second leaves me on the verge of tears instantly#also i'm currently busy with finishing drawings i want to have finished by wednesday#and as always i put that off until the last possible minute so i know this time is going to pass by super fast#what it's going to be like i can't even imagine right now... but definitely the experience of all time#goosepost
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fighting my allergies and losing miserably. anyone else
#ITS SO BAD#AND MY ALLERGY MEDS DONT EVEN WORK ANYMORE#i must have nseezed several hundred times over the last few days#talky cherub
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#i am going to lose my fucking mind if my father texts me 'call me as soon as you can' without any context one more fucking time#i have told him SO many times over the years that this is a severe anxiety trigger#and if he wants to ask for a call he needs to put some kind of context in his fucking texts so i'm not panicking the whole goddamn day#and now he's ignored my calls and texts for a half hour and i have to go into work and spend the next 12+ hours anxious#so thanks dad for ignoring the hundreds of requests i've made for you not to pull this fucking bullshit#if it's something stupid again i am going to lose it#personal
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It’s amazing how much a hostile work environment can make you feel like you aren’t human.
In other news, I found out just how soulless management is on Monday.
Maybe that’s why I don’t feel human - management is trying to turn me into whatever the hell they are.
#I’m currently a retail pharmacist#we’re all ready treated horribly by corporate on a good day#there is a double standard in how people are treated#managers can fuck up wages or blatantly screw people over and that’s fine#some people can work in pjs in public and constantly steal supplies and that’s fine#some people can be late EVERY SINGLE TIME THEY ARE SCHEDULED and that’s fine#another pharmacist can harass you about how they don’t like how you did x thing on a regular basis but that’s fine#but you tick off the wrong person and suddenly everything you do is under a microscope#am I bitter about a recent write up due to being late because of unannounced road blocks?#yes yes I am#did the manager who decided to come talk to me about it tell me that I should be arriving to work 30 minutes early to do unpaid work#also yes#did I look that woman in the eyes and tell her after giving several hundred hours of manditory unpaid OT to the company that I’d only work#my scheduled shift?#you bet I did#I also called out the double standard (didn’t name anyone)#she got super defensive about that#I have no more fucks to give
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#i joke about it and all but like. i cannot emphasize enough what an impact it had on me to be uhhhhhb#micro-institutionalized in the way that i was for the first 14 years if my life#and i am honestly going to count the time i soent in ''elementary'' school bc it wasn't a normal school. it was a charter school#that began as a parent organized alternative and swiftly devolved into an authoritarian nightmare#a bunch of people who were simply not ready to educate children let alone ''problem'' children#of which there were MANY because that school got all the kids who had been turned out of public school for behavioral issues#there were hardline rules about literally everything. normal childhood behavior was pathologized and punished and as a kid#you had no way to understand WHY#and so many of your peers were having problems because ofc those ''problem'' kids were typically severely traumatized#or were actively being abused#so even if it wasn't happening TO you you were being exposed to it in a hundred little ways every day#so i was confused and miserable all the time AND was struggling academically bc i had undiagnosed adhd#(or possibly just trauma?? i honestly neither know nor care which came first at this point)#so my mom pulled me and my brother out. him at 11 and me at 6 and said ''i'll just do it myself'' and#raised us in a way that wasn't religious but resembled evangelical or lds stuff#i couldn't watch commercial tv or listen to popular music bc my parents didn't want me exposed to what they considered inappropriate#and while i still had extracurriculars i was always the odd one out bc i had no exposure to pop culture or normal socialization#for my age group#it resulted in me always feeling alone and like i didn't belong. and since most of my social life was my parents and their friends#that was the perfect soup for adultification#i was fine with adults. put me with my peers and i was a mess#it made the transition to high school incredibly difficult but i DID make it#but that was only 4 years still in an institution. everything began to unravel once i tried to move into anything resembling ''real life''#and then my dad's suicide which was a major trauma in early adulthood which only made my mom's grip on us tighten#i did get to START life until 26. not really. and it's just been a game of catch up for the last 5 years#and im so *angry* at the unfairness of it all. at the time and experience and milestones that were taken from me. at how i blamed myself#for it for so many years and the problems i developed because of it all. dissociation and substance abuse and suicidality#the fear that still has a death grip on me#the courage required to just exist#it's *exhausting*
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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off work and think i should make a promo. i do not want to LOL but. i really want to write with more people here and promos are the best way to get people interested, i think.
the only question is... do i super '70s it, make it pop with color, or do i lean into the gritty aesthetic of red riding canon?
does anyone know of any nice promo templates that might suit what i want? i could make one without, but i'm tired and want to make this as painless for myself as possible.
#remember being a teen and having so much free time and energy to make several promos in a day? remember making hundreds of icons???#now just the thought of opening up my editing program makes me tired gkslsdkgs#ran out of steam halfway v sleepy but but but... plot bunnies#out of fairy tales [ooc];
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This is actually getting ridiculous
#every time i open this app there are AT LEAST 5 new bots that have followed me#why is this happening??? what's going on???#its literally been several hundred in the past 2 days when will I know peace#leave me ALONE
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bit of an insane take i'm aware but i do firmly believe that the trend of meta moral guilttrips contributed at least a little bit to people thinking that consuming certain media and doing so in specific ways is somehow activism
#vtxt#either that or they were warnings#litmus tests even#of finding out which kinds of people are capable of critical thinking#like i love meta games as much as the next guy but at the end of the day they're nothing but code#no choosing genocide in undertale does not make you some kind of great ontological evil#like you can ilterally reset the game there's no harm in killing pixels for shits and giggles#in universe i understand *why* they acted like that like it makes sense they'd try to guilttrip you#i just wish the players who were so rabid in insisting other people never did the genocide route understood why as well#or at the very least understood that the game isn't real and that hurting real people is several hundred times worse#than hurting fictional ones
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Me, who literally just sweeps for a living: ah nice the weekend I can rest and hopefully engage in some hobbies
Mom, who spends all day almost every day at home just sitting on her phone: could you sweep the apartment?
#like#yeah sweeping used to bw my favorite chore#back when I was the one staying at home and mom was the one paying the bills#and I hadn't spent Months sweeping for several hours every weekday#im literallt struggling with my JOB cause ive started Hating sweeping#im reaching sweep burnout#on top of it making my chronic pain worse#she'll do like the bare minimum while me and my bro are working and then give us a list of chores to do on our days off#we're paying the bills we're paying for food we're paying for anything she buys herself on a fucking whim#i literally spent five hundred dollars on Her trip to a music festival last month#im SLEEPING IN A CLOSET so she can have a bedroom#LITERALLY#im so tired and im wearing thin#i havent written or seriously drawn in ages#i haven't watched my shows or read new books#i just wake up and try desperately to have enough energy to go to work and then i come home and lose myself for the rest of the day#weekends are torn between resting to have more energy next week so hopefully itll be better or using the time to do the rhings i love
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